This is Jan1, 2009, first day of the year; I am evolving, finding some hidden truth about myself. Getting to know myself and feeling demands of every beat of my heart. It is the barricade that I am passing through which was keeping my soul from performing its purpose in this universe. I am feeling a dying demand for blood; I think I am becoming a cannibal.
As I finished watching the Hannibal series (Red Dragon, Silence of the lambs, Hannibal, Hannibal Rising), I realized my true needs, my purpose. I am starving for some human flesh. Darkness of night and loneliness of the hostel are making me more and more miserable towards my hunger.
I have searched across the lobby but there is nobody there, the dark silence is making my soul cry like a child craving for his mother. No one cares for me, no one ever did… I need nobody, I am going to find it by myself and then I won’t care for them either…
And He is still with me, He is guiding me. He is saying:
Him: That I don't think, you would like.
Me: It looks good.
Him: It is good.
Me: Can I have some?
Him: You're a very unusual boy, aren't you?
Me: I couldn't eat, what they gave me.
Him: Nor should you. It isn't even food, as I understand the definition. Which is why I always, bring my own. So which would you like to try? Well, I suppose it's all right.
He knows what I want and always gives me. I am becoming like Him….. but people say He is a monster……… Nooooo, He is not, they are going to pay for that, I will make them feel pain, I will make them. No mercy…
(Don’t be alone on a new year’s night. In case you are then just go to bed and have some sleep. At last Happy New Year, have fun but be careful because I am watching you.)
1 comment:
Too scary writeup man, at the end I'm afraid to imagine myself in that situation, but I'm happy because I know that I'll never be there. huh . But still, it was a lots of frightening.
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